Not Me!

I could have done more! I was so upset with myself for not putting more time to prepare for my duty. I was complaining - Lord, why can't You help Kate nap longer... the laundry is piling up... the toilet needs cleaning... I need to spend more time waiting on You but I can't seem to be able to! I thought I need to do something so that God will move. I was so discouraged that I almost wanted to throw the towel... but everytime when I feel this way, I sensed His Spirit ministering to me...

I can do everything through Him who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:13)

The point is, it is not me, not what I have to do to so call please Him! It is what the Spirit can do and what He wants to do. The Lord sort of 'reprimanded' me but it was more of a comfort than a reprimand... 'Your weaknesses are made perfect in My strength...' for as long as I obey and avail myself, that's what He wants from me. It is Him, it always has been...